Christmas. It’s one of those things…like Marmite…either you love it or you hate it. Thankfully, for the most part I love it! It’s the only time of year when sitting in at night with a mug of hot chocolate and a movie is more acceptable than going out for the night…at least it is if you live in a place that might as well be as cold as the North Pole. I’d say living in Alberta, is just about as close to that as you can get, don’t you agree? 😉
Anyway aside from the hot chocolate, blankets and movies, I’ve always associated Christmas as the most perfect time of year to be in love. So here’s the other side of the story, the unlucky part. I’ve never had the pleasure of being in a relationship, never mind being in love for Christmas and sadly this year is no exception! Now, I’m not looking for tonnes of sympathy or trying to make my life into a sob story but when you’re 22 and pretty much everyone around you is either in a relationship, engaged or married already it starts to get pretty depressing.
What would I give to be curled up on the sofa with my boyfriend rather than curled up in my snuggie, to go out for a walk in the park where all the Christmas lights are hung or if you’re in Calgary go to see Zoo Lights rather than just reading about how much fun other people had when I see my Facebook newsfeed littered with memories of their oh so romantic night out. I just can’t help but feel envious of them because out of all the people that I know I’ve always been the one who continuously talks about how much I can’t wait to be in love, to get married, to have kids! Don’t worry boys…I’m not planning on making this happen within the next year or two but it’s definitely up there on my priority list and it’s pretty disappointing to watch yet another year fly by without me getting even the tiniest bit closer to that goal.
Then to top the whole thing of…I’ll try to console myself by sitting down to watch yet another movie alone, since I love Christmas movies (I could literally watch them all year…even the bad ones). However, it only goes and makes matters worse, because it seems that it’s not just me who associates Christmas with a perfect love story…oh no…it’s me and every big studio movie producer in the world, because every movie is based on some unrealistic romantic tale of how a couple finds true love and their happy ending at Christmas. So while I have to admit I really do love watching them, it leaves me sitting at the end, watching the credits, wondering why I’m still so alone!
Still, here I am, sitting writing this post about how miserable I am because I’m still single, hoping that my true love story is just around the corner. Likely? Probably not. Good for making all these Christmas movies bearable? Hell yeah.
So getting to the root of this problem – I’m starting to wonder what exactly is it about me that’s keeping me from finding a relationship? Am I doing something wrong? Is there some terrible personality trait that I need to work on? Am I just too picky? I’m determined to find out just what it is because if only I knew I’d be more than happy to work on it. However, it seems that no one that I know can put their finger on it and believe me I’ve asked.
Now I’m not going to lie and say that I’m the easiest person to please but I’m certainly not the hardest either. I’ve got an idea of what I’m looking for in a guy but I wouldn’t say it’s unrealistic. It just seems that any time I find a guy that I really like, he doesn’t like me that way and any time a guy does like me that way, I can’t seem to feel any attraction towards them. It’s honestly starting to get a little bit ridiculous.
So with only another 11 days until Christmas, I’m going to be realistic and say that I’m probably not going to get my romantic walk in the snow this year but maybe this will be my last year to be single. For now I guess I’m going to have to just make do with doggie cuddles, several flavours of hot chocolate (that I might have bought at the International Christmas Market last week) and a supply of Christmas love stories coupled with a couple of boxes of tissues 😛 Sounds like the best I can do with the cards I’ve been dealt.
So, to congratulate anyone who has managed to make it this far through my post (hopefully there are a couple of other people out there, like me, who can empathize with my Christmas blues) here’s a list of some of my most recent TV Christmas movie gems 😛 WARNING: These programs may contain cheesy love stories.
- Lucky Christmas
- A Valentine Carol
- All She Wants for Christmas
And that’s only what I’ve watched in the past few days! Stay tuned for more Christmas posts to come. In the meantime…what’s your favourite Christmas movie? Cheesy or otherwise? 🙂